Oh hi, hi, hi welcome to my blog
About a week ago Jenna Marbles uploaded this vid called “What Disney Movies
Taught Me Part 2” and i feel a little nostalgic. Why? Because the first vid I
watched from Jenna was “What Disney Movies Taught Me” (2011). And I watched that vid in
2012, the year I started my Youtube journey.
This week I wanna talk about how I met
Jenna Marbles.. or much likely umm how I found her on Youtube. And a little
story of my “first” love for youtuber.
In my older post I said that I “met” Jenna
Marbles by accident. So here’s the little story.
Back in June 2012, I was in my not so
freshmen year as a college student and that’s the time I got my baby laptop, HP
Mini, for the first time (I called him Sasuke or baby girl). My college got
this thing called “free wi fi” and I was having a hard time connecting my baby
to internet because you know I was so dumb (let alone now). But then the more
time I spend with my baby and studied its body part and boom voila boof Olalla
I gotcha baby. Back in that time my relationship with facebook still on it’s
best so yeah I was more active there and neglecting my twitter (like its never exsist). And since there was nothing to
watch in my laptop so i went to Youtube and searched for cool stuff and by
cool stuff I mean some viral funny not time consuming kinda video (and some
music videos). The first video was about babies. Full with babies, from
laughing babies, crying babies, sleeping babies, scared babies, and all the
“bies”. After I got bored with the babies I started to search something else. I
started with the “how to” videos (that time I feel the need to better myself
and I think some tutorial would help me a lil) and everytime I typed “how to” the
suggestion be like “how to be gangster”, “how to be emo”, “how to be ninja” and
I was staring at those suggestion then I was like “are these tittles even real?
And “how to be ninja”? what the actual crab?” the one that I clicked was how to
be gangster, I watched it for 5 secs and was like “ewww old stuff, bye” (big
mistake).
Moving on!!
So I searched another “how to”. My first
“how to” was “how to be confident” (cos I was such a pussy motherf). The number
one rule of me when it comes to Youtube video is: no time to watch it online,
just download it, watched it home. The reason: college is the only place I got
internet connection, I repeat “the only place” cos I broke, can’t effort to buy
a modem. Well sometimes I watch some online just to check some comments.
Back to the video.
So this guy in the “how
to be confident” wasn’t really telling me the legit way to be confident. It was
just a skit and I was like “holey crab! I got fooled”. But the more I watched
it, and I’m in love with this guy. My first youtuber crush. This guy name is
Tom Norman and his channel is Tomakonus, he was 18 that time, British, tall and
white (I was weak okay, don’t judge). For a couple weeks I was go crazy with
stupid heart beats and the nerve to looking for everything that relates to him
online. I subscribed to his channel, liked his facebook page, followed his Youtube
channel’s Twitter, followed his real Twitter account, and back then I thought
it’d complete everything if I can become his “friend” on facebook. I remembered
the time i tried to found his facebook, it was pain in the soul cos I never
found him. But then my sister told me that she found “Tom freaking Norman” on
facebook and I was like “OH EM GEE FINALLYYYYY SAY HELLL YES” i added him on
facebook and I was waiting for him to confirm like an idiot. He never did,
never. I was so so so so sad that time and be like “it’s okay, you followed him
on Twitter, right? It’s more than enough”. He was uploading several videos and
then gone, disappeared, nothing. Technically he got a good excuse, he was
traveling around south America to do some filming studies. And I forgot about
all my stupid feelings for him. But wait, it’s not just because of that. This
thing keep bothered, his tweets. Actually he barely tweet stuff, but sometime
he tweeted a link to an online dating. First time, I’m okay with that, I mean
he’s a teenage boy he needs a girlfriend. And there was a time he keeps
tweeting that link like crazy and the curious lil girl I was I clicked the link
and my eyes burn it was a porn site. And that’s why I plug out everything about
him from my eyes for like ever as possible (my first love broke my heart for
the first time and I was like douchy douchy douchy ewwww). What a
disappointment.
And during my stupid feels for that Tom “Riddle Voldemort pervert looking” Norman I had the
nerve to look up for something else on Youtube other than the viral one and at
the same time something inside me kicked in, my “lil feminim 9 years old girl”
side start to made a move She whispered to me “disney old movies” and you know
what happen next. I search stuff like Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty and Peterpan and
everytime I search for them videos Jenna’s vid “what disney movies taught me” is always in between.
First assume on that video was “it’s probably just a video to show people
how beautiful disney movies are” so I keep ignored that vid and keep scrolling
for disney old movies. Then when I’m done with the download and got a lil tired
the curiosity kicked me when I saw Jenna’s vid appeared in the side of the
Youtube page. And you know what happen next. Yup, I downloaded it.
I got home, change cloth, prepare some
snacks, got my pillows ready, open my laptop, search the file and watch the
video.
The opening and then she swore. You can
call me old school or whatever but my ears were still so virgin that time I
barely heard people swore. If there’s a song and then there’s a line when the
singer put the swearing words I blocked that sound from my ears. But something
about this video that just made me stay. She swore like a professional, not
like a rapper but like a girl with a lil boyish thing. I like that. And then I
subscribed to her but I wasn’t the hardcore fan like I am right now. Sometimes
I watched her vid and the other time I just more into that douchy bag british
guy.
I had like 10 to 12 something video of her
in my laptop. The first several videos were “what disney movies tought me”,
“how to trick people that you’re good looking”, “how to get boys like you”,
“girl crushes”, “thought on marriage” (these were the things and still are the
things) there’s once I deleted all of those videos cos i barely watched them
and I barely interested with her contents that time but I subscribe still.
It took me long enough to finally download
her stuff again.
It’s quite ironic to be honest how, now I
like the way she swore and the way she speak her heart out I have to say it
here I kinda obsessed with her a lil. Girl crush stuff go crazy and crazier
after I join lampdom. How crazy? Very much worse than it should be. But just
crush okay just crush no more than that.
But seriously tho the thing that happen with the way I thought after I watch “what
disney movies tought me” is like … boom shakalaka change everything. I always
have, what I always called, 2nd thought (I guess everybody has this)
but the way this “2nd thought” works was pretty unique for me. Lemme
give you a lil look on how it really works, if my main thought was “good”, 2nd
thought will act like a badass. If my main thought was “bad”, my 2nd
thought act like a freaking angel. I have the sense to tolerate things and not
to tolarate things, but most of the time it’s hard for me to choose which
thought should be more stand out. I’m enjoying being badass but I don’t wanna
irritate people at the same time. (hashtag dilemma)
Jenna Marbles, personally for me, is like
the rebilious version of a girl. If girls more identic with something sweet,
soft and ummmm idk.. fluffy? Watching Jenna will probably change that
prespective. She make me feel that not all girls are into those stuff,
sometimes you can act like a dude and still have that sense of girl. Or maybe you
feel a little “naughty” it’s okay to feel that way. But yeah if you more in to
“good girl” material like me thennnn idk. I choose to hide my bad side online.
That’s it, have a nice life and see you
very soon
Until then stay teehee everybody J
So I bought the paint, the brush and that’s
it. But I wasn’t go straight to paint the shirt after buyying the tools. I need
TIMESSSS. I did a lil testing. The paint cover said “you can use this paint on
papers, shirts, woods etc” so I think it won’t rinse. But no it did rinse and I
was like “oh NOOOOOO”. Luckly it’s not ALL rinse but it’s like a lil, yeah I’m
just so easy to get panic. I was paint the sleeve first and here’s the result:
Few moments after the sleeve I was
collecting all my positive thought in me (because I was all emo since the YTFF
livestream day one and two in Singapore) to make the big one in the back of my
shirt. It took me a whole day to draw the pattern and another whole day to
paint the shirt. 
